princessamy390's Journal

starting the year 2008!
hey everyone!! well it's been a while since i updated. i was so busy with exams and stuff and then i was always out doing something during christmas break. but it was a great vacation. i pretty much spent all my time with Travis which was amazing and i also got to see some of my friends which i havent seen in so long. i had a lot of fun and it was great! it was so nice not to have class, homework, projects or exams. i cant believe i have to start again on monday. hopefully my classes wont be too hard. i will try my best to suceed as well as i can in every class. i have 7 classes so it will a pretty full semester. i'm also looking forward to spending with Travis. i know we'll have some great times together! but anyways i work all day tomorrow so i better go to bed so bye bye!! love you all!! xoxox

Current Mood: loved

totally in love
hey everyone! time is flying by so fast. another 2 months and a half and it'll be Christmas already. i cant believe it. i did a bit of Christmas shopping already, mostly for my parents. i have a few friends that i'll have to shop for, my sister and my bf. speaking of bf, travis and i have been together for a month and a half now and he is so amazing. he wrote me a poem, i got rose from him and he loves me very much. he cares so much about me. always asks me how was my day, or was work and we hang out alot which is great. and even though we hang out a lot i still miss him when i'm not with him. we are so crazy for each other. i've never felt this way before. he makes my heart beat faster and gives me butterflies in my stomach when he looks into my eyes. i hope to never loose him. i've never said this before but i think he might be the one. i hope we do end up staying together and getting married and having children. but anyways i could talk all day but i have to go to bed soon, but other than that, school is going great. all the marks i received so far were good so i'm hoping it'll stay that way. but anyways i'm going to bed so i'll write back later!! bye bye! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: in love♥
Current Music: Amazed- Lonestar

starting a new school year!
hey everyone!! wow! well i need to update this more often! alot has changed since the last time that i wrote in here. i did spend alot of time witrh jeremy when he first got back. but as summer came along he became more and more distant. he was acting so weird and often i would ask myself, does he still love me. our whole relationship fell apart but i loved him and somehow i was hoping things would get better. i blamed it on him working alot and i was hoping that in september when he didnt work anymore, things would get better. but anyways, in august, he dumped me. i have to admit i was upset. he was my longest and most serious relationship so far. that weekend, i went to a party. when i saw how he was ignoring me and being an asshole, i was like you know what? this is not even worth it. i also met a guy named travis at that party. we hooked up. i didnt know if something would come out of it after the party. the next morning we say goodbye to each other but never exchanged phone numbers. but he added me on msn and asked me to hangout. at first i wasnt sure what i wanted because i had just gotten out of a relaitonship. but over the weekend i thought about it and realised there was no way it would have worked out between me and jeremy and realised that my mom was right. he did anything for anybody besides me and never had time for me. it's nto like it was very serious at the end and i mean how can i miss someone that i almost never see? so during the week after the party, Travis and I hung out and i felt so attracted to him and i got along with him so well. so on Friday August 17th, we went on a first official date. it was a double date with Monica & Tylor. it went really well. he came over to my house after the movie and we just talked. the next day we were on msn and we decided to make it official. so we've been going out since August 18th! i am so happy! i never thought it was possible to find a guy that was actually romantic and wants to get married and have children. he is so sweet and loves to cuddle which is awesome!! hehe! i hope it works out! so we'll see what happens!! anyways i have to go so i'll try to write again soon!! bye bye!! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: From This Moment On - Shania Twain

hey everyone!! well i'm all done with university for this year! summer has officially started! and the best thing about it is that jeremy is back to spend it with me. he got a medical release but nothing serious. he can apply again in 6 months so he'll be around for the summer. we'll have time to get closer and make our relationship stronger before he leaves. We have been together for over 6 months so far, so by the time he would leave again, we will have been together for over a year. we have spent quite a lot of time since he's been back. it's been really great and i love him so much. him going away just made us realise how much we loved each other and things between us are working out great. it is pretty serious between us and i could see myself with him in the future. we do everything together and his entire family is so nice to me. other than that, well i work on weekends and still have dance classes during the week, but this week is my last week. I have a dance recital this weekend and the one after. well anyways it's 1:00 am and i work at 11 so i better go take my shower and go to bed! so bye bye!! take care!! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: happy

hey everyone!! well it's that time of year again!! time to write exams! but after that it will all be done until september! ej hope de bien faire la..demain c'est mon examen de stat which qu'est mon hardest cours, so on verra comment ca va. well jeremy a decoller pour son training de l'armée mardi matin. j'ai passé la day avec lui lundi. on a été visiter une bunch de monde dans sa famille. pis then le soir on a watcher la tv pis ca. c'etait une awesome soirée. on a juste parler pis il me faisait right rire. mardi matin, j'ai tellement pleurer quand il a bailer. pis chepas,il semblait pas vrm a carer qu'il me laissait par derriere. but anyways, ej l'ai pas parler jusqu'a vendredi. then il m'a caller. on a parler for a bit. i promised to be waiting for him when he came back. he told me he was thinking of me and loved me very much. this was very conforting. i still miss him but i'm much more happy now that he has told me everything that he has. he's getting transfered to quebec, but Yvonne & I will go see him for a weekend probably in June! I miss him so much but he is amazing and I love him so much! I wont leave him for anyone else. WE have agreed to make it work through long distance. Anyways I have to go study for exams!! love you all!! xoxox

Current Mood: hopeful

valentine's day
hey everyone! well yesterday was valentine's day and i got to spend it with the most wonderful person, jeremy. he came to my house and gave me flowers! i was so excited! i had never received flowers before except from my dad! haha! actually my dad bought a bunch of flowers for my mom and my sister and i each got 2 tulips! anyways, jeremy and i watched a movie together: Taking Lives. We were all cuddled up in my basement. Then we went to eat some wings at Sport's Rock which was were we had our first date. well it was a great valentine's day! i love him very much!
but there's just one little problem, ok well a HUGE problem. the day before valentine's day, jeremy got the news that he was accepted for the army. if his doctor approves and signs that he is in good health, he just has to send his papers and they could call him within a week or 2 to start his training. i cried so much that night when i found out. if he leaves, he's gone for 3 months in ontario and then comes home for a few days then goes to Gagetown for like 6 months. so that's a long time not to see him. and what if after his training he gets sent to irak and ends up dying? what am i suppose to do? i dont know if he wants to break up before he goes or what. he told me that if i hooked up with someone else, he would understand cuz he's gone for a long time, but i would wait for me just to be with him when he comes home. there's still a chance that he won't make it through the physical training in ontario, but who knows? i might end up never seeing him again. it hurts so much to know that i might never see the guy i love with all my heart again. i mean if i knew it was just wait for him but then i'd be sure we'd have a future, it wouldnt be so bad. i dont even know if he'll come back to me after his training is done. all i know is that i'll be crying a lot in the near future. there's gonna be a lot of lonely nights and i'm going to need my friends more then ever! i wish i could change his mind but i know it's not possible. he's been wanting to do this ever since he was young. i dont even know how i'm going to deal with all of it. i'll try to concentrate on my studies and keep positive but it's going to be the hardest thing of my life. knowing that my boyfriend's life might be in danger is not the best feeling in the world. i know it bothers him to leave and i know that he loves me but i'm not sure he knows to what point this hurts me. anyways i love him and i'm gonna pray for him and i'll see what's gonna happen! love you all!! xoxox

Current Mood: depressed

Christmas vacations 2006
hey everyone!! well university has started again. my classes are math, french, economy, statistics, english & biology. so far, they're not too bad except for stat, cuz the teacher is like chinese and no one understands what he says and apparently that class is already really hard. anyways, we'll see what happens!
well my Christmas vacations were pretty nice. On Christmas eve & Christmas eve, Jeremy & I were together all day. We went to see each other's family. I don't remember all the gifts that I got, but here's a few. I got a best friend's necklace from Sylvie. From my sister, clothes, pyjamas, christmas decorations. From my parents, chocolate, season 10 of Friends, Scene It Friends, gift certificate to the movies. From Jeremy, i got a stuffed toy, which is a little kitty and a good bracelet which is engraved I love you!! When I saw it I was like omg!! anyways I had a really nice Christmas.
On New Year's eve, I worked till 3:00. Then, I went to pick up Sylvie and we went to Jeremy's house. We partied for New Year's there. Yvonne was there too!! :D It was so much fun!! The next day, Sylvie & I came back home and had lunch at Mikes. Then I had to work 4:00-8:00.
On the last week of vacations, I saw Jeremy everyday which was pretty awesome. I love him so much and things are going great. It's been a little over 2 months now!! yay! :) Next month is going to be exciting. My 19th birthday is coming up, our 3 months and valentine's day. I dont know what to buy him for valentine's day.. I'll have to figure that out.
anyways, I dont know what to write anymore so I'll go update the rest of my site!! bye bye!! love you all!! xoxox

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Say It Right - Nelly Furtado

exam time!!
hey everyone!! yay!!! i finished my classes for the first semester, but now i have to write exams. i did my first one this morning which was french. It went really well. i was done in like 40 minutes!! and i wasnt the only one done. now i still have 5 exams to go. 2 on monday and one on tuesday. i'm off from work today all day today and tomorow so that i can study. right now i'm taking a break from studying. i'm so nervous for my math exam on tuesday. i really dont know how it's gonna go. after tuesday, all i have is psychopedagogie de l'enfant thursday morning and english sunday afternoon. those ones dont really stress, specially english. except for exams, things are going really good. christmas is coming really soon and i can't wait!! i have 3 full weeks off from university!! it'll be really nice. marie-pierre is coming down this thursday and we're going out to lunch. then next week, yvonne is coming down!! i think they're both going to be down for the whole christmas vacations!! it'll be nice to see everyone! someone that i really miss is sylvie. she is my best friend and we see each other like once every 2-3 weeks. we dont go to the same school and we are really busy. so hopefully during christmas break, we'll have time to catch up. we talk on msn tho and keep updated. i'll also get to spend more time with jeremy. on christmas eve and christmas day, we're supposed to spend the whole day together. i dont know what i would do without him. when i'm stressed out, he encourages me and makes me smile. i love every minute that i'm with him. he's everything i'v ever wanted. he's cute, nice, funny, caring and i know he feels the same way about me as i feel about him. our one month anniversary is monday, which is in 2 days!! yay! anyways besides that, there's not much new. i better go study again!! bye bye!! xoxox

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Winter Wonderland - Brad Paisley

study week & long weekend
hey everyone!! well my life has been turning to the good side lately. everything seems to be going well. we just had our study week in university which was so nice. so since i didnt have any classes that week, i went down to Fredericton on the tuesday night, which was halloween, to go see Yvonne. Monica, Tylor, Chris & Jeremy came down with me. it was a blast. it was my first time meeting jeremy and we got along very well! we went trick or treating. i was a witch. anyways after that, we played some games and watched a movie. it was a blast. well to make a long story short, chris freaked out after me because i was talking to jeremy. he got mad and ignored me. so when we got back to moncton, jeremy got my number and we started talking on the phone. he asked me out on a date and we went to eat at sport's rock then watched a movie at my house. it went great and on saturday night, we were talking on the phone and he asked me out!!! :D it's a little soon but wtv, if we're dating, we might as well make it official and break up if it doesnt work, but hopefully that wont happen. he is awesome. he makes me laugh and is just so laid laid back but romantic and the same time. friday night, sobeys was having a staff party at the bowling alley. they were all aloud one guest so sylvie invited me. it was a lot of fun, then after that, it was midnight madness at the mall so we went shoppping. jeremy and chris met us there. yvonne had told me earlier that day that she had gotten a job so couldnt come down for the weekend. anyways, well guess who was at the mall? yvonne!! i was like omg!! they wanted to surprise me. when i saw her, i pushed jeremy aside and ran to give her a hug! i was so happy!! so we shopped then went to eat at sports rock! saturday, i worked, and jeremy asked me out on the phone at night. sunday(yesterday), it was jeremy's 20th birthday and he had a party. yvonne was there too! it was so much fun. i came home today and worked on a french project. after that i had dance class and now, i'm just here writing to my live journal. i'm probably going to bed soon since i'm really tired. besides of that, university is going good. i'm proud of my marks so far and hope it'll stay that way. anyways i'm gonna go so write to you later!! bye bye!! love you all!! xoxox

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Any Man Of Mine - Shania Twain

hey everyone! wow! it's been a long time since i wrote in here, actually since i'v updated anything on my site! my last entry is kinda depressing but i promise this one wont be. i just came back from my dance class. this weekend was so much fun!! saturday, i worked as always, but yesterday, me, Sylvie, Melanie Dupuis & Melanie Landry went up to Fredericton to go see Yvonne! God! it was so good to see her! we had a blast! we went sightseeing a little, played games, watched a movie! i miss her already and i cant wait to go down again! Marie-Pierre Foucher is down here and we're supposed to hang out this week! that should be a lot of fun too! man! i like university but it sucks that half of my friends are gone so far away!! but besides of that university is going really well.. i love the people there and my classes arent too bad. anyways i'm gonna go work a bit on tbe rest of my site so i'll write back later!! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Show Me The Money - Step Up Soundtrack

bored at home
hey everyone! well i'm kinda going through a ruff time right now.. me and denis broke up a little over a month ago and i can't stop thinking about him.. i still have feelings for him and it sucks cuz he doesn't. we dont even talk to each other anymore. he's so different. he was such a sweetheart and then just started pissing me off. we went to a party after we were broken up and he freaked out when i was with another guy! but what the hell?? i was single!! he was the one who had dumped. then after that we had talked about getting back together but now he seems to have changed his mind AGAIN!!! but wtv, it's too late now. even though i still love him, i wouldn't go out with him again unless he had a REALLY good explaination!! he would probably end up hurting me again! and i've heard he's calling my best friend but at least she is nice enough to have said no to go to the movies!! but then again, it had happened to me twice before that my "friends" go out with the guy i love. i guess this time, i have a real best friend!!! sylvie, if you read this, i love you so much ma chere!!! anyways, university is starting next week! i'm kinda excited!! it's gonna be so different! maybe i'll meet a cute guy there!!! hehe! well not right away cuz i'm not exactly ready to date. i still get upset sometimes when i think about him... it really sucks!! his cousin, sonia is awesome though!! well i knew her before anyways! but thank god there's somebody in that family who loves me!!! well i can't complain about the time we went out together. i had so much fun with him and he came to prom with me and everything but now, he's just pissing me off and he has hurt my feelings a lot. I dont think we'll be calling each other anytime soon! but maybe it's better that way, cuz everytime I talk to him, it reminds me of how much I miss him.. I think it's still gonna be a while before I forget about him...he really meant a lot to me and treated me so well compare to some people! I wont say who but my friends, u know who I mean!! anyways, I have to go clean my room cuz Sylvie is coming over later so I'll write later on!! bye bye! love you all!! xoxox

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Not Ready To Make Nice - Dixie Chicks

my breakup
hey everyone! well it's been so much fun lately having time off and being able to enjoy my summer! at first, i was a little lonely but my friends keep me busy. denis and i broke up on july 17. it was so weird. i didnt expect it at all. things were going so great. that day, we went to centennial park, went shopping then played and played basketball and had kissed during the night. talk about any normal date, then he told me he wanted to talk to me and broke up with me. he said he sees me more as friend.. at least he was nice about everything and we talked for a while and he explained himself. i was in such shock that i didnt even cry when he told me. but after he was gone, it hit me. i started crying like crazy. the next morning, i had to leave work cuz i couldnt stop crying. i spent the day with my best friend! sylvie, if you're reading this, thank you so much for having been there for me through this tuff time. for a couple of days after, i couldnt eat, had trouble sleeping and hated being alone cuz i would get depressed. fortunetly, my friends did a good job keeping me busy! i realised that he meant a lot more to me then i thought but i lost him so there's no point. it still hurts and i dont wanna date anyone for a while. i know it's gonna take quite some time cuz last time, it was easy. the guy was a jerk about everything so i just started hating him and stopped loving him, but i cant hate denis, he never really did anything wrong except break my heart. anyways, i've been spending lots of time with sylvie lately and it's been great! we always have so much fun together. i hung out a couple of times with pat which has been really nice to me too, and vero which i really hope to keep hanging out with! tomorrow night i'm going to voodoo for a teen dance! i cant wait! sylvie, vero and her cousin megan are coming with me. anyways i'm out so talk to you later! bye bye! xoxox

Current Mood: crushed

graduation weekend!
hey everyone! well i just had one of the geratest weekends ever!! friday night was our high school prom. i was so excited to go! i had been wanting to go ever since i was little. in the morning i went and got my hair done. it took 2 hours and a half! but it was gorgeous! then i went for makeup. the week before i had gotten blonde highlights and gel nails. anwyays, after i got home, i got my sister ready for prom cuz she was going with some guy in grade 12 just as friends. at 4:30, denis came to my house and we took some pictures. they are so pretty! my dress was a puffy pink dress and i looked like a princess! anyways, after that we went to matt's house (sonia's boyfriend) and took some more pictures. then we went to eat at mikes after that, we took a few pictures at chateau moncton then headed to prom. after prom, denis came to my house and we got changed. we played some pool and hung out for a while. then went at monica's for a little while then went to eat at sports rock. finally at 5:30 i went to bed! it was one awesome night! i had fun with my friends and i was so glad denis came with me. saturday, we had a celebration at church. not much to say, it was boring. then after, i had a family party. it was quite fun but i was falling asleep before the end. sunday, yesterday, it was the graduation. it was long but wasn't that bad! then later that night, denis came over! he stayed till like 2 in the morning and that's when we made it official that we are going out! we decided that we would say it was on the 26 which is today because well it was past midnight. man! i couldn't ask for more! everything was so geat on graduation weekend and everything turned the way i wanted it to be with denis! he is so sweet and i think i'm really started to fall for him! anyways i have many things to do so i'll write back later! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Shania Twain - Man! I Feel Like A Woman

hey everyone! well i havent updated in a while so i thought i would. i've been so busy lately with all the project, tests and preparation for the exams. but now it's almost over1 tomorrow is our last day of school. i'm happy but sad at the same time. i'm graduating and next year, everyone will all go their own seperate way. well besides school, well i started dating someone a couple of weeks ago. his name is denis. he is so adorable. he is my prom date! i'm so happy he agreed to come. otherwise i probably would have went alone. i can't wait till prom night! only 11 more days! it's coming soon! it'll be here before i know it. we're going to eat at mikes before prom. me, denis, sonia, matt, yvonne, her date, marie-pierre, d-c, melanie & jacques-michel. yeah..i met denis through a blind date. i went on a double/blind date with sonia & matt. we went on 4 dates so far and it's going well. i'm hoping it'll work out because he seems like a really nice guy. he's coming to see my dance recital on saturday. :S hopefully i wont trip off the stage! lol..yesterday was my dance recital for dansencorps. for academie de danse dieppe, we have one on saturday and one sunday. well anyways i better go study for exams so i'll write back later! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Life Goes On - Leann Rimes

hey! well i just got home from school not too long ago and i'm talking to yvonne on msn. well i have a math test tomorrow again but this one shouldn't be too bad. i'm so glad we have a long weekend coming up! i'm getting so tired of school and just wanna give up. but wtv, only 17 days of school left! woo hoo! i cant wait till prom! everybody is gonna be so pretty!!! the weirdest thing is gonna be seing monica and yvonne in a dress! lol..but i'm sure they'll look awesome. there's many activities at school coming up so that should make the time go faster. well anways i should go study so i'll write back soon! bye bye! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: temperature - sean paul

hey everyone! well i hadn't written in a while so i thought i would do that! well i guess the whole pat thing was just a crush, i mean i think he is hot and nice but yeah i dont think he cares about me very much.. he always has excuses not to hang out with me so i dont even ask him anymore. jason is driving me insane. i decided to be friends with him since otherwise he wouldn't leave me alone. he keeps saying that he misses me but i'm sorry but if he wants me back, it's too bad! he wont have me! i do miss talking to him that's why i want to be friends. we used to talk on the phone for hours before. the only thing i would like though is for him to stop complaining and accept the fact that we are just friends! well this weeekend i'm going on a double date with yvonne! my date is a guy named chris..i talked to him on msn a couple of times so yeah, can't wait to meet him. i have a math test tomorrow which is gonnna suck but oh well! but no school tomorrow! woohoo!!! anyways i better go to bed so i'll be back soon! love you! xoxox

Current Mood: happy

hey everyone! well i just got home from school! today has been a pretty normal day! only 2 more days of school then we have a 5 day weekend!!! yay! wednesday night, sylvie is coming over and we're going to start painting my room! that should be a lot of fun! then thursday morning, i have my graduation pictures. after that, we'll paint my room again! if we have time, we might go see a movie thursday. well about the whole caro thing, we still dont talk but meh! jason and i don't talk to each other at all anymore!! he finally got the message that i didn't want to talk to him after i told him off. i really don't need him in my life. yes i have loved him but i don't anymore and i'm better off without him. besides, thereès not much new with me. i talked to pat on msn quite a few times lately. i really miss him. i hope we can hang out soon! i think i might somewhat have a thing for him again..but i'm kinda confused and i don't think i have a chance with him. he had asked me on a date last summer, but i went with jason instead...i wish he would come to prom with me, but that's probably not gonna happen...i haven't told anyone yet about it cuz i'm just really confused, so yeah sylvie if you read this, well i guess you'll know. but whatever there's not many people who actually read this so wtv and most people won't know who i'm talking about. i wish he could see how much i care about him, but i'm too shy to tell him how i feel about him. anyways i have some homework to do, so i'll talk to you later! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Ode A L'Acadie

hey everyone! well i am so tired right now so i might not make sense btu anyways. well i got my result for my math test and it was 89%!!!! omg! i thought it was a joke! i'm so proud of myself. another news, jason's awful gf dumped him! i feel bad for him cuz i still care a lot about him but i'm glad that he's not with her anymore. she's such a bitch. she was jealous when i called him and hung up on my face once. man! i was so pissed! i feel so bad though cuz he sent me a text message tonight and i was just like waht do you want?? cuz i wasn't in a good mood and didn't really feel like talking to him. that was before i found out he had been dumped! i don't love him anymore but we were such good friend a long time ago, before we went out and i wish it could be like that again. but with his stupid gf, it made it so much harder. so..anyways things are going great at school. last night, i went out for supper then to a movie qith sylvie. we had a blast. we went to see "she's the man" and it was a great movie! sylvie and i have been hanging out quite a lot lately and it's been awesome! she is a great friend. caro and i, well we're kinda drifting apart. she's acting so weird lately. she ignores me, but wtv i already told her that if she had a problem with me, that she had to say it to my face. i don't want any lame ass letter. it doesn't mean anything. i am changing slowly as i am realizing that i am graduating soon and going to university next year. i love her very much but sometimes she gets on my nerves. she needs to grow up. she's always jealous because i'm more with sylvie, but she doesn't make an effort either and i would rather hang out with someone who acts their own age. next week i think i'm hanging out with jessica leblanc. she's going to l'odysee now and i haven't seen her in quite a while so it should be nice to see her again. anyways i think i'm gonna be going to bed since i work tomorrow morning so bye! bye! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: tired

hey everyone! well after school today, i thought i didn't have anything to do tonight and that didn't seem like so much fun since it was friday night, but anyways, i ended up going to the mall and then swimming with julie leblanc & my sister. it was a lot of fun! the mall was like packed! when we got out of the pool and were walking in the parking lot, some random guys drove by and waved, when we waved back they beeped the horn! lol..anyways it was funny! it was nice to have a night to relax. lately i've had so much to do. i've worked extra, had so much homework, tests to study for and projects! everything is going by so fast! i'm graduating in like 3 months! only 91 days till prom!! i really try hard to do my best in class but sometimes it's so hard. i realize now that when it was so easy in grade 9, i shouldn't have slacked off cuz even if it was easy, it was the basics and i missed it and now it's hard catching up.i just did a biology test yesterday and i have a math test on thursday. we'll have to see what the results are. anyways, i'm gonna work on some homework then go to bed so bye! bye! talk to you later! mouah! xoxox

Current Mood: calm

hey! well i really don't know what i have, but well i'm all depressed all of a sudden. jason and i broke up almost 2 months ago and i miss him like crazy! there was just something about him.. he made me so happy and now i've lost him...i guess i wasn't good enough. it's so weird..i thought i was finally over him and it comes back and it hurts. i don't know what to do anymore. i still talk to him sometimes but only when he calls because i'm afraid to call him. i can't tell him how i feel cuz it's just too weird. i try to act happy at school but i'm crying inside. it's so painful. for now, i'm just going to concentrate on school. i don't have time for a bf right now and my heart is not ready. anyways. that's all i have to say! hopefully tomorrow will be a better day! love you all! xoxox

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: This I Swear - Nick Lachey

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